I feel like a blob.

I'm literally becoming depressed after two weeks of no training. I took two weeks of taking it light, then two weeks of nothing and here I am.  It's not really being depressed it's just feeling anxious because I feel like I'm not moving forward.  It's the double edge of being over committed to training.  It's really what I do, I work and I train so now I got work..PSSHHHHHHH f'ing work... I don't hate it because it pretty relaxed and I like most of the people I work with, but right now I'm taking pictures of our inventory.  Doesn't sound bad but were talking about the same three angles of an ATV axle over and over day after day.  Don't know how many weeks it's been but maybe a little over a month of the same three angles.  See where I'm coming from?? I mean it's money though and I get to listen to my ipod so I'm just trying to be thankful for the things I do have because without the ipod this wouldn't work. Hopefully I can start getting some form of exercise within the next upcoming weeks if my neck and back decide to cooperate.

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Today's Struggle.

So I'm on my break from work right now and let me tell you a story about how sad life can be...Well today was the day we were gonna grill a full on baby lamb at work and it was going to be amazing!  I was actually looking forward to this for 2 weeks now that's 336 hours or 1,209,600 seconds of imagining how good today's lunch was gonna be... The news was broken to me around 10:03 am this morning that there would be no grilling of the baby lamb and my heart dropped.  Imagine showing up to school thinking you had a bad ass field trip to the aquarium and the teacher said it was canceled as soon as you walked in.  That was today's struggle and now I have to go back to work...#Mystruggle 


On top of that I didn't eat breakfast this morning so that I'd be extra hungry, but the only thing that went according to the plan was just being extra hungry at work.

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My Struggle.

Today I almost died... Well not quite, but my back and neck have been horrible jacked up so I've been staying....medicated. Anyways!  Yeah so while I was at work I got sick and threw up yadayadaydaaaa I went home and went into a coma here I am!  I've been in so much pain I can't even sleep because whenever I move it hurts and when I wake up each morning I wanna die. Today I woke up at 4 30 am and couldn't go back to sleep till seven so this is really starting to become a problem.  Hopefully I can see the doctor tomorrow and find out what's up. It's been three weeks of having a serious strain and on Saturday I got checked from behind at practice and that was pretty much the deal breaker. I Didn't really feel it at first, but then the next day when I woke up I couldn't move.  On top of that my niece moved my cell phone and I was cut off from the world for 72 hours. I can honestly say it was a welcomed vacation the first 6 hours then around 12 hours I was uneasy...by 36 hours I was broken and defeated...This is my struggle.

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